I feel numb. I’m not happy, I’m not sad, I just exist. Why can’t I snap out of it? The only times I feel whole are when I can share my feelings with my sisters. It is so comforting to talk to them and they know exactly what I am going through and experiencing.
I signed up for a pancreatic cancer walk this fall. November is awareness month for pancreatic cancer so I am looking forward to that. I am trying to channel my energy in positive ways.
My sister ordered some cancer awareness wristbands and mailed them out to some friends and family. I thought that was very nice and supportive!
I am grateful to have time to enjoy what life holds in our future. This is a transformational experience for all involved. It is exciting and scary at the same time.
Published by Learning to Love Myself Again
My father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I created a blog so I can release my feelings in a healthy way while trying to keep it together for my own sanity. My hope is my story can help someone else who is struggling. I also hope that I can pick up pieces of knowledge from those that have been there before me. Since his passing I have rediscovered myself.
I have mental illness. I have have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety most of my life. In addition I suffer from borderline personality disorder. This blog is my outlet to sort my feelings and share my story. My hope is that my story will help others that are alone and feel that this diagnosis means that your life is over. The truth is that in many ways it was only the beginning.
XOXO~
Shannon
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