I recently watched the movie ‘A Monster Calls’. It is about a boy who is visited by a tree that tells him stories. The boy’s mother is also dying of cancer. The movie is about the boy’s journey of his feelings and acceptance of his life. The story was definitely a tear jerker and hit close to home.
One of the things the boy tells the tree is that he just wishes that it would happen already, meaning he wished his mom would die. I could relate to the feelings the boy was having. It is difficult to love someone with cancer. You do not want to see them in pain or suffer. You are scared everytime the phone rings wondering who is on the other end and what are they going to say. At the same time you feel like something is wrong for you for having these feelings.
It was a beautiful story about love, grief, pain, and sorrow. As I grow and age the lesson I am learning is to be fully present in the moment.
#smallwins #flicker #littlethingsmeanalot #cancersucks
Learning to Love Myself Again 